the fact that she’s still writing about me clearly means that I did ruin her life and she’s not yet over ME. She’s still affected and will always be, even If I am not doing anything. Maybe her boyfriend’s not over me and yet I don’t even really care to begin with. I pity her so much .The fact that she has to display her relationship and her family for everyone to see clearly means that she still need the approval of others and is never secure on her own. I feel lucky and blessed that I didn’t end up with the guy she’s with or else: 1. I’d be having a baby at such a young age. 2. I’d be dependent on my parents which will be a total nightmare for me. I’d be selling fugly cupcakes like it’s a big deal when In fact I dislike cupcakes so much and 4. I’d be miserable just being in a dysfunctional and unhealthy relationship from the very beginning. But maybe, If I did end up with the guy she’s with, his family will love me more but I will not be the gela that I am today. The gela who is now 1. training and working at a known tertiary and prestigious hospital to begin with. A hospital known locally and globally. 2. Someone who’s luckily blessed with good friends that excels in every aspect of their lives. 3. Someone who’s surrounded by professional people who graduated top of their class or who made it in the top ten list of board exam passers. If I were to choose the guy she’s with before, For sure, I won’t be able to finish college and pass the board exam(first take). I’d remain stuck forever and I wouldn’t like that. I wouldn’t learn how to love nursing. Thank GOD, I remained steadfast and strong that i ended up knowing better. I am free to do whatever I want without thinking of mouths to feed. I’d have more time (without the pressure) to mature, progress, grow and aim higher to reach my goals and dreams in life. I am not pressured to feed another mouth just because I am obliged to. I still have the freedom to choose what is best for me and not merely settle for familiarity’s sake. I am definitely happy with my life right now and I am happy that the guy she’s with is stuck with her while I am happily pursuing my dreams one step at a time =)






